Unlucky Strike

I warned you guys that I was getting together with the crackies...oh my. Last night was a reminder of how nice the last five weeks have been without these girls in my life. We were supposed to meet up at 10pm - a late, but not unreasonable school-night meeting time. As one crackie is unemployed and the other crackie is self employed they didn't give a shit what time they stayed out until so of course, they didn't even leave #1's apartment until after 11pm....I went with a brave face knowing that I would be coming face to face with #1 and Pstz. I had a great time with #2 getting caught up and laughing a lot - that was good - then #1 was trying to ingratiate herself to me, knowing that she fucked up any chance of us being friends with her November antics...she was cautious but friendly and I was cold at best. Why should I even try to pretend when she is such a collosal bitch? Everything was running fairly smoothly until pstz showed up - then C#1 thought it would be really funny to scream and rant about what a slut he was and how the two of us were going to fight over his dick. She can have his Herpes penis....I was mortified. She began to throw herself on top of him and tell him how sexy he was etc..and then she had the nerve to brag about how Mr. Photog was her lover while she left her live-in boyfriend (who is now footing all of her bills) at home. I was disgusting and just wanted to get the fuck out of there. I made my way inside with them to the bar, although I was not going to have drink #2. All the sudden pstz and #2 started pawing each other and whispering dirty things in each other's ears right while I was standing there at the bar with them!! Hello are these two so clueless? I had had enough and it was almost 1AM and since I was the only fucking grown up in the whole place that has a real job, I decided to high-tail it home. I said goodbye to all the crackheads that were there - #1 told me that she wanted to get together soon. I responded with a hesitation and she said "oh, OK" like she understood I wanted nothing to do with her sick and twisted, selfish ass and then I said "I'll be good to go in two weeks." She perked up like she actually wanted to be my friend and I scooted out of there.

Yesterday I found out that one of the girls I went to Vegas with had her house broken into and plundered and one of the Nanny's at work mentioned that she had been robbed at gunpoint so I wasn't too thrilled about searching for my car by myself....pstz agreed to walk me back which was funny since I was being such a bitch to him all night - but please he deserved it. He was trying to be all flirty and girls - I looked fucking adorable last night - so I can understand, plus I think that is the only way in which this guy knows how to communicate with women. I was not giving him the same energy back. Once you screw me I am done with you - both he and #1 can rot in hell for all I care. Anyway on our way out we ran into #2's boy toy coming up the escalator(pretty uncomfortable since pstz is totally jealous of this guy) he was all manic, which is funny since he is supposed to be drug free to support Photoboy....I was nervous that p-boy was going to come up the escalator next, but fortunately that didn't happen. I bet you anything that #1 called them up and told them to come so she could throw in my face that she had them both - fucking insane people - and not to be self absorbed - she also probably wanted them both there for her own pleasure so she could make p-boy jealous by throwing herself at pstz. While we were trying to find my car (I have parking lot issues), #2 called and asked pstz if we were making out - then he tried to make a joke out of it and said - "See, she's jealous of you, she called to check in on us - I can't even hang with friends when she's around." When I didn't find that funny he chastized me - trying to get a smile, but it was in poooooooor taste. Pardon me for actually taking our date seriously and thinking it was a bit more than typical male-slut behavior. Or maybe I am the psycho one for not living my life in a hey - I sleep with everyone kind of way?

So we finally got to my car and I drove him back to the side of the bowling alley....he kept asking me if I was going to his party this Friday - yes, I am going - I figure with 800 people - I am not going to see him anyway. I told him this and he responded - "oh, you'll see me there." Then he told me he wants to hang on top of that - all I can think of is sure #2 is in Europe for five weeks so I am going to be her fill-in???I don't think so....what an asshole. To top it off,I called #2 today to wish her a good trip and she was so clueless asking me if I had fun and how great it was that her boy toy came and that all had so much fun together blah blah not even thinking once how painful that whole situation might be to me. The good news is I have seen life without them and it is healthier and much more fun. I came home and had this revelation: If you try hard enough, anyone with practice can become the bitch - but not everyone can be the genuine, good person, even with hard work and practice. I am proud to be the good, nice one. Why I ever was ashamed of that I will never know - but it was a great lesson and I am thankful for all the pain those crackies caused. Don't get me wrong - my talons have been sharpened in the few months since I arrived - and I expect that I will get more cut-throat in what I accept and don't accept in my life. But through all of that editing - I will remain my truest and best self - and fuck anyone that doesn't understand or respect that!