I am back!

Hello out there in cyberland! I am back in LA after five weeks back east and I have already started a new life out here. My time back east was amazing: I got to kiss a boy I've wanted to kiss for a few years, slept with an old flame that put the flame out in my head and said goodbye to a love that wouldn't die in my heart. It was like doing spring cleaning in my romantic room and I feel great! I also got to see my grandma a lot - and get over the creepy old ladies in the home who scream at you in their delerium and ask you for help (even though they don't know what it is that they need help with.) I prayed that my grandma didn't turn into one of these ladies everytime I left the room - it is sort of like if a tree falls in the woods. I like to believe that she is the only sane one in the place - but like McMurphy in OFOACCN...it is not always fun to be the only one who is sane. I, personally do not have that problem anywhere I go :).

So many stories, but I am going to leave those in Buffalo since I am starting a fresh here in LA LA Land. Last night there was a huge festival down my street - I had been wanting to go for a year - since I moved in right after it last year. It was jam packed with little hipsters who worked really hard on putting together funky,vintage outfits and getting really high. I was dressed like a jap and felt old and out of place - It was waaaay too hot to dress in vintage (at least the stuff that I have) and I don't need to put on a costume anymore to feel cool. Seriously, it was over 100 degrees yesterday and I just wanted to be as naked as possible. It was good to look at the young crowd and not feel envy over their youth, beauty or the fun drugs that they were on. I was very happy to be me, at my age, in my outfit and totally, 100% sober. I ran into some friends and we had as much fun as we could, but being old fogies, we were more concerned about the health and safety regulations than the music coming out of Ben Harper's guitar.

I started my new job - it is going to be a very different place from my last school and it is worlds away from Hollywood. Both good. I am looking forward to finding a niche for myself where I can write and work and not force either one. This tuesday I am going to see the Beastie Boys play an all instrumental show at the Wiltern - which I hear is a great venue! I think(for the moment) I have successfully left all the crackies and their posse behind me. Crackie #2 gets back from Europe on my b-day and then she is moving to NYC in November. I miss having her around, but at the same time it gives me the freedom to do what I want with whom I want and to meet new people as well. That's fucked up isn't it? Weird kind of friendship. Hmmmm

OK - I am off to go see La Vie en Rose and then maybe a pool party, although I am remis to move my car since the parking sitch here is nuts because of the festival. Last night, the good doctor tried to come and meet up at the fair and spent an hour driving around looking for parking and then gave up and drove another hour home - that made 3 hours in the car for him. Pretty sucky.

Everyone have a great Sunday. I promise to be much better about updating the blog (Heddy) and I will have great stories with new characters I promise. I just joined a co-ed kickball league so that should be great fodder.

Until then,

Na-na