dangerous curves ahead

Hey there -

I know I haven't written in a while - and I apologize although I am never quite sure if anyone is even reading this blog until you complain that I haven't been writing! So the boss is out of town and I have the cluttered, claustrophobic office to myself for a few days. Life has been stressful. I am pretty much convinced that I am in a dead end job with few redeeming qualitites (although I do get to do my laundry!) and it is time to get out. Today I made a few emails and calls to the skeleton crew that makes up my contacts and I am putting the word out and keeping my eyes open. Just having the knowledge that I am possibly going to be making a change in my professional situation gives me an added kick to my step. I forget that I have the power to change that which makes me feel powerless (aka my job.) So I am going to get aggressive and find a situation that suits me a little better. A job where I work with someone besides myself - where I don't have to worry about the IRS coming after me, where I get paid enough to pay my bills and maybe once in a while buy a new pair of underwear or get my eyebrows waxed - you know the little things. I like to work in a place where I am challenged, given feedback and see that there is some kind of light at the end of the tunnel - that I have something to work for - not just put my enegergies and talents into the black hole that seems to be this particular production company. I love my boss - she is smart and sweet, but she isn't hungry enough for me - or focussed enough on the things that I am focussed on - like making movies. Anyway I am probably not going anywhere for a while, but I feel better knowing that I am taking the step forward to make myself happier.

Thanks for listening to me rant....going to Vegas this weekend - so excited - will definitely fill you in on that later. Thanks to all of my mommy friends for sending me pics of their kids from the holidays - their aunt na-na misses them very much.

Have a great hump day.

Na-na