Springing Forward

Hello....writing to you from my desk at work. Had an amazing time in Vegas with everyone - learned how to make delicious matzoh snacks but alas, did not eat any meat. There really is nothing better than being with people who know you better than you know yourself and they still love you!

Since my dna activation I have felt significantly more positive and I keep having these interactions with people that underline my path towards a new, more positive me. For those of you who are waiting for me to pack my bags and move back east - you will have to wait. I moved here for a reason and I am going to stay until I find out (unless of course I get a great job offer from somewhere else:))

Last night I had sushi el fresco with our friend Call me Susan. I haven't seen her in almost a year and the two of us had a great time catching up. She thinks that blogs are totally tmi - but for me, it is a way to keep writing and for some of you that actually take the time to read - catch up on my life and have a good giggle and a relieved sigh that you do not have to live my life. I love CMS because she is brave and brazen and always has a great attitude about things even though life has thrown her some shitty curves. She doesn't seem to dwell in her lot like I do and last night she told me that she made a choice a long time ago to walk the positive path instead of the bitter, really fucked up path that others in similar situations have chosen to take. Yes, we are all fucked up in one way or another - but it is how we choose to perceive our lives and move forward that makes all the difference. At one point during ourevening she told me that people want to be around me - I found that surprising - since sometimes I feel like such a grump. But then she reitertated something that P-1 tells me all the time and I know neither she nor M paid CMS to say it - since I asked! She basically talked about the positive energy that I exude when I am in my comfort zone and that somehow I need to be able to recreate that on a daily basis - even when I am not with the people that I love so much my heart explodes everytime we are all together.

Tonight is the smurf b-day party. I am taking cracky #1 with me as surprisingly enough - since #2 disappeared we have become really great friends. In real life - when she is sober and not around #2 - she is a smart, generous, wonderful girl who is fucked up in so many of the same ways I am and is one of the only people that gets parts of me that no one else can - and everyone needs a friend like that. I am glad that I gave her a second chance. Communication is an amazing tool.

Finally heard from the zine editor - the mag isn't totally dead, but I am not counting on it anymore to launch my amazing writing career. Instead I am going to go for broke and actually send out some of my articles to real places that might (gasp) pay me for my writing. As CMS said last night - the worst they can say is no - and no one every died from a no - right? Vinnie Van Gough aside.

Have a smurftastic weekend. #1 and I are going to a club downtown sat. that is run by this amazingly hot Brittish guy we met at my local watering hole wed. night. He looks like a young Robbie Robertson from the band - and he was wearing a velvet blazer and a blue ruffled tuxedo shirt and whispered analysis of Steppinwolf in my ear as I drank champagne. Yeah, life ain't so bad when you have a good 'tude.

Later....Na-na