Texting Dilemma

My new friend K keeps telling me that I need to relax. Ha! I have been trying to do that since middle school - not sure I am going to have a miraculous change and suddenly be cool. That is one of my biggest problems with guys - I don't know how to be cool. If I like a guy I tell him, if I want to hang out I call (this I have been doing a LOT less of lately.) Here is some evidence that has a surprising turnaround at the end:

As I mentioined in the last post - Dirty Texter (we'll just say DT) blew me off on Friday, and even though I had a great time with C, I was still bummed. I didn't want to let that go for some reason and thought I should tell him what a shit he was - but in a cool way of course! Ha. OK so I texted him the following message: "next time just let me know it isn't going to happen, ud do that for a friend right?" Being the new and improved me, I saved it and called K to go over the text with her to make sure I wasn't making an ass out of myself. grrrrrr K wasn't picking up and I had to call my friend 'Doc to check in about his b-day party. While on the phone I asked him what he thought -he was like "whatever - go for it." In his defense he was wrapped up in the Sabres game - and yeah, he's a guy. So, fueled by the go-ahead by a real male species I sent it off.

Dontcha know that two minutes later the phone rings and it is K - "what's up?" I tell her about my dillema and what I wrote. One of the reasons that I love K so much is because she is bluntly honest - a rare quality in this town. So in her honesty, she told me I had made a huge mistake and that it showed him I was holding on to this and thinking about him and his actions the next day. I got a horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach and got so mad at myself. Why do I sabbotage everything? - although in truth, what was I sabbotaging? - we don't even have a friendship at this point - really - but that's hindsight. I asked her to lie to me and tell me something to make me feel better. She did a great job coming up with something to calm me, but I was already over the edge. I munched on a 1/2 a cookie on the way to Manhattan Beach and decided to just have fun. I was wearing the funniest outfit - definitely more Los Feliz than M-Beach - those people are creepy pretty down there. I got to Doc's and our friend Chuck was there so we took off after a very intense game of rock, paper scissors (which I conceded after the first round because it took us twenty tries for one of us to lose.) :) So I am the driver - for the way there at least and I check my phone and there it is - a message from DT. My stomach lurches "Oh shit." I close my eyes, hold my breath and push send to view the message; ready for something resembling - " You are a psycho bitch please stay out of my life." BUT instead what I saw shocked me to the core - I was left speechless - I know that is so hard to believe....here is what he wrote: " So sorry! I totally fucked up. Please forgive me. Na-na - you're right" I am going to save that one forever. At fist I wasn't sure if it was sarcastic, but I think my message actually got through. I like this new me that stands up for myself when people treat me like shit. AND to top it off - I did not text him back - aren't you proud?