Fluidity

Hey now - two posts in one day that is pretty impressive huh? What a day. I started off at Michele's and it was so bizzaro - like I had never left and then I escaped just as fast without having done anything. I got an email there from one of the writers telling me that he had always enjoyed my notes on his scripts which made me feel good, but then bad because I was leaving the writing world of film for voice overs which I know nothing about. I went to santa monica and stopped in Vons on my way into the office to get a salad for lunch. I ran into a few peeps there from the office who were surprised to see me - I had to explain that I was coming in for someone else - I went to eat with them in the lounge (AKA high school cafe) and people got a good laugh at seeing me back there so soon. I finally made it to the desk and it was a nightmare - soooo unfriendly - so boring - they dont want me to do a\nything - jsut answer phones - what a nightmare. I am bringing a book tomorrow. It made me realize how much fun I had working for psycho bitch upstairs - at least I was getting something done. I looked at my phone and I had 6 missed calls from my recruiter and the lady that I thought had hired me. Turned out that I wasnt hired - funny - I thougt I Was when I went into the office earlier in the afternoon and she gave me a cd of her clients to study....apparently my recruiter and my future/potential boss are having a fued over me and it is horrible - I refuse to be in the middle - he is trying to get me to have a conference call with her while I am trying to establish myself in this new job. Apparently this lady wants me to wait for her to come back from vacation in two weeks and then she will decide if she really wants to hire me ornot. In the meantime I am supposed to twiddle my thumbs...she told my recruiter that if he got ma another job in the interim that she would never use his company again...what is that shit about really. If I am that great then she should offer me 10k more and have me sign papers tomorrow. But I am not that sassy in real life and I have had a glass of wine or two. MEanwhile....I can't kee up withmyself. Part of me knows I am only taking this job because of the money - that isnt even that good. The office is too quiet and unfriendly and it isnt even doing somehting I know I am really good at - who knows if I will even like it. People have said that your first year or so in LA is very tough, but honestly I had no clue that it was going to be this hard. When I was here the first time - everything seemed to fall into place. I just have to keep up the faith that I moved here for a reason - a reason bigger than the amazing weather and hiking....

BTW - if anyone has tips on lowcal/low budget/high protein/non lactose meals (besides rice and beans) I am taking suggestions.

Love you all - na-na